I’m a planner. If I could pencil in where I’m going to be this afternoon, tomorrow, the day after that, 5 years from now, I would probably do it. I live my life by setting goals and accomplishing them, sometimes at the expense of neglecting to see opportunities that are staring me right in the face, or realizing that the path I’ve set out on isn’t even what I want. Over time I’ve gotten better at adapting to the unknowns that life throws at you, but “going with the flow” is still something I will always have to work on. It’s an ongoing process but I’ve figured out how to balance my “J” qualities with a little bit of “P”, such that I can survive when things don’t work out quite as planned.
After all, sometimes the best things in life are the ones that happen to be the most unexpected. Like reconnecting with someone you haven’t seen in a long time who also happens to reside a world away. Someone who was the most important person in my life for the better part of a year and then gone. Having disappeared as quickly as it fell into my lap, I spent awhile trying to reconcile the fact that maybe fate put him there for a reason, in that place, at that time, but that was all it was ever going to be. It was a reality I tried to accept, and for the most part, succeeded in doing so. But every now and then I would have a random dream, thought, intuition that there was more. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in life, it’s that if your gut is telling you something, it’s probably right. And thankfully, it was.
I’m still as much of a planner as ever, but when life hands you beautiful brown eyes and a smile belonging to someone who is smart, witty, caring, and a continuation of adjectives that will never do the real person justice, you embrace the welcome detour that takes you from Point A, to B, to C, rather than the original journey from Point A to C, and never look back. And when cette individual’s favourite cake is carrot cake, and it just so happens to be his birthday, you dedicate your carrot cake recipe to him. Because what else would you do?
J, whatever serendipitous stroke of luck, fate, or kismet brought you back into the centre of my universe, I thank it every day. You challenge me and make me want to be a better person day in and day out, for you, for me, and for us. You’re right, there’s no earthly way of knowing which direction we are going, but there are 360 degrees of possibility from whatever angle I look at it. I couldn’t have planned it better even if I tried. Happy birthday.
- 2¼ cups flour
- 1 tbsp. baking powder
- 1 tsp. baking soda
- 1 tsp. salt
- ½ tbsp. cinnamon
- ½ tsp. nutmeg
- ¾ cup shredded coconut
- ½ cup pumpkin seeds
- ½ cup sunflower seeds
- 1 bar Green & Black's Organic Ginger Chocolate, chopped
- ½ cup unsweetened applesauce
- 1 cup non-dairy milk
- ½ cup canola oil
- 2 tsp. vanilla
- 1 cup brown sugar
- 2 cups grated carrots
- Line 12 muffin cups with muffin liners and heat your oven to 325F.
- Mix together the dry ingredients, from the flour to the chocolate.
- In a separate bowl, combine the remaining ingredients, whisking or stirring to blend.
- Add the wet ingredients to the dry ingredients and stir until just incorporated.
- Portion the batter into the prepared muffin cups. Bake at 325F for 30-40 minutes, or until a skewer inserted in the centre comes out clean.
- Cool and top with the frosting of your choice (or just eat as-is).